What to do ....

I am stuck ... I was told by an ER doctor Saturday night that I may have lymphoma. I can't get in to see my regular doctor until Friday. In the meantime, I am really trying not to panic and assume the worst. It is so hard not to do that though. I have three small children and a loving husband. I can't have cancer. PERIOD. To think of all the wasted time I have spent over the years just makes me sick. Now however, I am physically sick and can't make up that time. What I really want to do is just scream.