What exactly am i scared of? Everything and nothing at the same time. What I am going to lose out on is infinite. The things I will not get to do. I want to be present at my sister's wedding. Hell! I wanna have a wedding. I want to graduate college and be a success for my family! But I have read that dying is like falling asleep, it happens so fast you barely remember it. So whatever the next life is, whether reincarnation or heaven or hell,I will not have to wait too long.
I am praying to God for a miracle. That I will go back to the Cardiologist in two weeks and Jesus will have cured me. I accept Jesus as my savior and I pray that he will have mercy upon me and heal me like he has so many others. I can beat this physical defection through the love of Jesus Christ. Philippians 4:13 "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me"